I was also abused as a child and in a 31 year abusive marriage. Unfortunately, life is about rejection and loss, but we all have a choice...to live our lives as joyfully as we can. I hope you will take the chance. Most people are afraid of rejection and it takes courage to keep putting ourselves out there (I have been on a dating site for 17 years; now that is some major rejection, but I keep trying;as you never know what can happen.) Don't allow fear to keep you from living the life you want; you get to choose.