Yes there are definitely similarities there Xyn, and this resonates particularly:
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Originally Posted by Xynesthesia
Yet I would still want to be associated with the kind of men I started to like in my childhood and impress them with my intellect, competency, independence and ability to solve problems.
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This is why I often found myself drawn to older men who would be impressed with my intelligence and wit, from a very young age. I am still drawn to teachers, and, of course, therapists, who are older men and who might also express approval for my intellect and ability. For some reason I have been able to break through that to some extent with this therapist.
I was talking to someone the other day who I have known for a while and whom I just found out is a supervisee of my T's. She said "the thing I get most from supervision with him is that I can be totally authentic with him, I can be totally honest". Made me realise that he just creates that space in his professional relationships. Had I not met him, I suspect I would have kept looking for, and kept failing to find and older man I can work through this with.
Thanks for sharing your story, I appreciate it.