About my situation. I’ve been deeply depressed for the last 4 years. What happened is I was abused by an ex girlfriend and it destroyed me, I keep trying to put my best foot forward and nothing seems to workout for me. In the last 4 years the only postive things to come out of my life is getting my masters and a new truck. I’ve moved back in with my parents I work dead end job. I bust my butt trying to better myself at work by taking on more work and learning as much as I can, yet in 4 years I have no luck finding a better job. Even so called jobs I am overqualified for I cannot even get. My luck with women is not any better. I’ve been ghosted by more women then I can count. I had a girlfriend at the end of last year early this year but she left me. She stated she was upset I told I her I wouldn’t be friends with an ex. She had no idea what my pervious ex had done to me. She also in the nicest way possible said I wasn’t smart enough for her. Like a master degree makes me dumb. Sorry I didn’t have a PhD. Besides that she was kind and actually cared about me. It sucked but I tried and solidered on. I just feel I’m cursed with bad luck. Last fall I put my self in therapy after finding out my abusive ex was engaged and had bought a house. She treated me like a doormat and was lazy and did not even apply herself. When I told her to focus on her daughter and go back for a bachelors degree she cursed me off . Any chance she got she would treat me like ****. She would curse and yell at me in front of her daughter. She treated my family with respect but never me. She put her hands on me the last time we hung out alone, all because she didn’t want to make out. She reslly destroyed me as a person. Therapy has not worked my ex even told me thought it was ok to treat me badly because she wasn’t into our relationship but tried since I treated her and her daughter so good. It’s funny I met my recent ex as I started therapy. It made me happy because I was not use to being treated nicely in a relationship. It was like a monkey off my shoulder as I could just Devote my time to finding a better job. I feel like no matter what I try to do I’m just cursed with bad luck. I feel hopeless and my friends all feel really bad for me. I don’t want to have another mental breakdown like last year. Now it’s funny cause I’m extremely into the gym and lifting and have gotten pretty big over the last 4 years. My last girlfriend said she loved how big my back was. Still this does not help. I find myself in the gym 6 to 7 nights a week. I just want the anxiety and depression to go away.