Thanks for all of your replies. It was much appreciated.

Well, I live in a poor country where psychology is extremely undeveloped. in my country there's absolutely no mental therapy, no mental medicine, no self-help book at all. if i didn't visit any American psychological web site i would still have no idea that i have OCD. I want to find an American therapist online yet my parents totally forbid it. they even forbid me to come to any online-forum including this web site. that's why i haven't been here for a long time. When i said that i want to buy some OCD books from an American online-bookstore my parents slapped me and snarled "see how much the international shipping fee is!" (in my country, it's illegal for high school students to have any job which means i can't have any income of my own). So, my OCD is still stay untreated by now because there’s absolutely no accessible treatment for me.

I do not think that there’s a hidden family history or anything. My parents’ misunderstanding mainly due to the lack of mental health awareness in my country. And I clearly know why I have OCD. Some experiences in my life triggered this. I’m sure it’s not inherited.

You may say that I soon will be an adult. However, in my country, there’s nothing like “when you are 18, you are free”. Parents have every legal right to control over their children even if they are 81. in my country’s culture, parents have very dominative position and children are not better than slaves.