Today T told me a bunch of things that he likes about me and very soon after that I turned into an absolute monster. Just generally very nasty to him, cursing at him, insults, sarcasm, etc. However, I did not realize the connection until he pointed it out.

I was basically saying to him, "See what an %#@&#! I can be? Do you like that now?" (Actually I literally did say that to him, now that I think about it).

I'm not sure what the hell I was doing. Testing him? I already know he's not going anywhere and that my anger is not going to scare him away. As much as I love to hear it, I tend to get very uncomfortable when he tells me things such as he cares about me or he likes something about me. The 'love' thing has never come up again because I couldn't handle it.