Yes you can call me that, call me anything actually, I will answer. it is hard isn't it fighting the voices of the bad girl. I finally took a xanax and it took some of the edge off. But I know that tonight when I lay down more flashbacks. I might call my T and leave him another message maybe that will help some too. You know the worse part of the flashbacks for me is the physical part. Feeling the SA all over again as if the first time wasn't enough. And the images well I guess the whole thing isn't great. I know I am young because I am powerless and I know I can't move I will get more hurt. Hit I think. I don't say anything, I am being held down too. Or man this is hard stuff. I guess maybe mine might actually like another name too. Interesting to think about. I used fragmented because that is how i feel. Just fragmented parts. Not whole never that. Maybe one day to feel more blended.

thanks for the encouragement. I will hang in there. It is what i do.

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