I just wanted to go back to this thread to share some thoughts that came to me lately.

Sarah, you've said you'd feel better if you knew that your T cared about you (and may be still does). Are you sure about that? I mean, I do believe it'd make you feel better..temporarily..but then you'd continue being in pain because of the fact that you can't see her any more. Do you believe that knowing that she cared/cares would help you complete your grieving process sooner, make a closure and move on with your life? I doubt it for some reason.

I recall situations from my own life when I had to accept the fact of being "dumped" and I was confused about whether the other person cared about me at all or not, and I also felt that if I knew that for sure, if I knew that they cared, I'd be able to make a closure. Then, at some point, I thought about it deeply and realized that knowing that they cared would just make me want to seek their company again, because it'd seem so stupid that we both cared about each other and couldn't continue seeing each other. It'd make me want to keep reaching out to that person and to convince them that we should meet and work it out somehow. This would've kept me stuck much longer than the harsh reality I had to face and deal with.

I believe, there are times when harsh endings are the only way in which life can end situations that are not serving our highest good. And it is harshness that makes it clear to us that it's a done deal and forces us to accept that it is a done deal. And when we accept it and learn the right lessons, we transform and evolve, which is exactly why the harsh ending was needed in the first place.