There are still no answers to this post. So I'll try my best.

I suppose you are in some kind of CBT-like program? I've understood that there CBT with its thought challenging techniques is not suitable for everyone. First of all because the whole style doesn't fit to the person and secondly, some problems are just too deep to try to work with such a thought challenging.

If your views about yourself are so ingrained and supported by life time of evidence then there's no wonder if attempting to challenge these thoughts in a cognitive level seems superficial and useless.

The other aspect is also that in this forum there seems to be a really high concentration of people with chronic problems, often involving early traumas and attachment problems. CBT-like thought challenging is ineffective in most of such cases and I've understood that most people just avoid CBT-like therapy (me including). I suppose that's the main reason you haven't gotten any answers to your question.