So, I'm pretty sure I'm going to take myself off my medication. I don't really see how it's helping and I'm tired of seeing a pdoc who genuinely doesn't give a ****. Oh, and has some of the worst advice I've seen someone attempt to offer. I might end up with another pdoc if I decide to go back on meds.

Who knows, maybe the meds are helping and I'm just oblivious to the change. It's perfectly possible, and hell, even likely. I could just be convincing myself to get off meds so I can go back to self-medicating without all of the side effects the AD and AP cause. I've developed a tremor and ticks due to the AP, I'm pretty sure. And with my AD, I'm going to have to get off of it for a time anyway come my surgery. It can't be mixed with pain medication and I'm not even going to kid myself by saying I don't think I'll need pain meds.

I don't know. I could be wrong by doing this, but I don't want a permanent tick and tremor (more than I already have). I also am sick of taking medication that reminds me I can't handle it all myself. I don't know why, maybe this is from my upbringing, but it makes me feel weak. I think I can handle being off medication and if I can't, I'll just go to the new pdoc and work it out.