Hey, thanks for replying hamstergirl.

Yeah, I guess i should mention suicidal thoughts to her. Like you say, that is what she is there for lol. I was talking with somebody earlier who said that i should make it clear that i am only having thoughts and dont intend acting on them. at least i dont think so, i am feeling pretty confused here lol. anyway, yes... i will try to talk to her about it tomorrow. my biggest fear is that i will be thrown in hospital. i cant afford more time off, i took off too much time last semester.