Hi Sarahsweden! It sounds like you're in a deep, dark, hopeless hole. I've been there. Many of us have and many are still there. You're not alone. I think Cinnamon Roll gave good advice. Since you can't change the system, change the things you can. All of the suggestions Cinnamon made are small things, but the small things add up. They can make a noticeable difference.

For many people, it's a combination of formal therapy, medication and self-help that help them get better. Exactly how much of each varies from person to person and even varies for the same person at different points in their life. I encourage you to keep trying to find that combination.

Now, to put my money where my mouth is...