Thanks for your concern, adieu. My dr knows that i don't want to take meds and accepts my reasons. Meds probably would help me, too. I dont know. There are so many things bad about them, that I read. Ok, yes, i suppose this is a case of do the advantages outweigh the disadvantages. and i dont think i can find anywhere that can give unbiased, unjudgemental views. and if i did, i probably still wouldn't be able to make up my mind haha.