Thanks for talking the time to write, Wants2Fly. I agree that depression can lie to us and tell us that we are not loved. that happened to me during my last depressive episode. but this time, it hasnt happened. so i know that people care about me, i know that. and i know it is so bad that i am feeling this way when i shouldnt be doing. but maybe talking with the counsellor tomorrow will help straighten things out in my mind.