I don't think he hates you, that's quite a strong feeling for someone to have.

However, I can understand how you feel. I have felt the same stuff about the whole myself and my life being crap stuff. People always act like meeting new people will solve all my problems, no it wont... more people to betray me, leave me and cause me to distrust, meanwhile... my life is still crap beyond the people. so I get that

I'm not sure what else to say here but you do have a lot of support here