Over the years...not many years just recent years, I keep having meetings with parents and a therapist and each time something I didn't know comes up. But I feel like I should know. My mom always has something to say about my childhood that makes me go WHO AM I EVEN? I never remember any of it so it just feels like she's talking about someone else. I mean it's weird not to remember anything in general. I kinda assumed I had a fine childhood...apparently not. I've always had a great imagination and used daydreaming as a coping mechanism....so at least that's explained a bit.