Potential Trigger: Bible + OCD experience (not sure if this might trigger someone else or not, but I know it could have triggered me once upon a time.)
Hi!
I can't tell you if you have OCD or OCPD, but I can tell you that I've had this experience in the same area as you.
I've been diagnosed OCD for almost 10 years now, so I've gotten better at coping, but I absolutely remember having debilitating experiences very similar to yours. I am not an atheist, but I also don't believe in the
I too avoided my laptop, made myself sick, etc. It's incredibly exhausting.
However, through therapy/meds it was something I was able to learn to control, so please don't give up! You aren't alone.