I get the "depressed but not"....I'm currently "suicidal but not". I don't have a plan, but I've been looking up things like how much of the meds I'm on it would take to OD and having your stomach pumped. And I've been self-harming, or wanting to, for the past several days. When people ask me why I'm depressed I don't know; I have reasons to live. It's just difficult. If anyone has any advice I'd very much appreciate it.