Romantic Rose, I think that it can be really hard to make good friends especially when you are lonely. I sort of experienced something similar to you in the past. I was lonely and the person I gravitated towards was a jerk, but willing to have me over all the time and hang out, and he felt FAMILIAR. He WAS familiar. And it was also a toxic friendship big time. He did not respect my boundaries when I said "Stop it." He was rude and insulting as well, and turned it all into a "joke." Are you in therapy? Perhaps a good therapist can help you learn to deal with your loneliness in a more positive and healthy way.