I've been on Modafinil for about 6 weeks now. I track my mood every day and can see I'm doing a little better!

I'm going from severely depressed to moderately depressed, so that's the good news. The bad news is that I'm still depressed. But I'll take this for now.

I have been really busy these past weeks cleaning out the house of a loved one whose husband passed away back in January. She's wheelchair-bound now and cannot help at all so my wife and I have been doing everything for her. It's hard work but we're almost done now.

Going through someone else's belongings and things by putting them away, selling some things, throwing away others is changing the way I look at my own life and the legacy I'm leaving (if anything beyond my kids). I look more long-term at the things I have now and the things I want to get: someone else is eventually going to become a steward of all of these things - even if that 'someone' is my kids, I want to make things easier on them somehow. I don't have any solutions yet but I'm thinking about it.