Tonight I sit here and I find tears just flowing as I try to find words to say what I feel. I am scared and afraid to let anyone inside. But yet afraid to keep everyone away. I feel not worthy or anything to even write here or come here. Maybe I should not. Words elude my mind but my head hurts and I shake as each letter I try to say something. I know depression lies to you but it also makes a good believer of you at times, and I am at one of those times.

I am sorry I am just hurting and I should just hit the delete button. No one would even know I was here. But something inside me tells me not to. Does the hurt ever end, does it ever really get any better? Can anyone really ever care? Can you really ever tell anyone what you hold so deep inside? Is it really ever safe?

Sorry.

cami