That's why I hide my feelings, most everyone in my life, thinks I'm ok now.... but if I was still showing grief of any kind... they would tell me i should be over it. It's frustrating and sad when people are like that. There is no should in grief.

1 year and 2 weeks later, I'm STILL struggling. I have yet to even go to any pet store toy section, even thinking of that makes me tear up. Halloween is a nightmare for me with relation to this loss, so I'm struggling so much again but keeping it in, it's the way I tend to cope... alone and by hiding

Hopefully you are able to work out the loss in time... and start to feel better and heal.