another memory - not really new, but more of getting it out rather than just my guesses. my little one (internally) wrote it out. Been having a super hard day - some SI and a lot of modd swings and crying. Feeling really close to some serious injury. Did not call t - trying to get through alone.
So, someone in another forum said write it out, fill a page... so i tried it. and i started writing everything i just typed - then the pen was taken from my hand and my little scrawled out what's been bugging her.


TRIGGER

that the dad's hands were like spiders and he told her they were spiders and to let them crawl all over her and into the cave and she had to lie real still and not make any sounds. she drew the picture and it's real scary - the dad and his spider hands and spiders on the wall (we remember having that nightmare with the spiders on the wall and screaming out becuz they were real) and there is the little 4 poster bed with the kid in it terrified.

then she wanted a gold star sticker on her hand.

we still real scared of them spiders.