I just can't shake the feeling. I married wrong men never met the right one. Didn't say yes to opportunities that would have brought me wealth. My mess in which I live is all my fault and I don't think I'll ever be right.

I believe in God, in miracles. But some things can't be fixed. I've lost so much, I've done so many things wrong. I just don't think I'll ever be right. I used to think as long as I was alive there was hope, but that's not really true. I can't have kids forever. Dr says I shouldn't have more, too high risk. That's just one thing I'm aware of. I'm sure there are more. It's making me feel hopeless.