Sunny, I totally agree with Kiya. You are NOT SAYING STRANGE THINGS. We all have many disorganized and "unusual" things going on in our minds. I think it's really important that you ask your t. why he felt strongly about YOU staying in control. It's important that you bring up your thoughts about letting the male take some of the burden to help you.

I do not want to pry in to your specific therapy. I am fascinated about the ego-states and the roles they play. Did you start to recognize them thru EMDR or just thru talking and slow discovery in this manner? I hope you don't mind my asking?

Finally, I cannot imagine any t. not being impressed with a patient who specifically said "I need guidance". Being aware of the areas where you know you need help finding the road and being able to ask this directly is a big deal. I am impressed with this. I think it shows that you take your therapy and growth seriously. You know the areas where it has become important to move in to. Most of the time, I feel like I am just drifting from week to week with nothing specific in mind except to feel better. Not real helpful to my t.!

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