My grandfather just died and I am at a point in my life where I can’t take things anymore. I have been depressed for more than three years now, been in therapy for two, and on antidepressants for almost as long. I have been through three partial hospitalization programs, all of which seemed to help at the time but none of which had a lasting effect. At first I thought my depression was situational but I’ve realized that regardless of how great things are going, I will always be extremely depressed for a decent amount of my time. Both of my parents have made it clear that I have to stay strong for the family this week, and I don’t want to burden them any further, but I’m super suicidal right now. I know my family can’t take another heartbreak this week, but I don’t know what to do with myself.