Same, I almost feel like I want her 24/7 attention like a baby. When I left the session today I immediately missed her

I'm guessing you didn't receive this enough from your own parents. As a dependent child, no attention at all really is worse than negative attention. Or maybe you feel like you don't deserve positive attention? I'm not sure.

Any negativity from my T would crush me, but sometimes I want to act out or make myself worse so that she'll worry about me more often and give me more attention and care. I control myself but the desire is still there.