I'm so sorry. I think a lot of us feel that way, or cheated by something that should or could have killed us (such as a bullet through my apartment and a perforated ulcer) did not. Why are we made to suffer so much? I know life is not a cakewalk for anyone, but I also know there are people with happier and easier lives than we have. Why did I get bipolar (and a ton of MI issues while both of my sisters did not? Why did I get the child with the sensory issues (hates noise, vacuums, hand blow dryers in public restroom, won't wear pants or shorts, likes all her food separated, is nearly 11 and cant'd tie a bow...etc. All her cousins (5 of them) do not have these issues. H doesn not have MI in his family, so I feel it is more my fault for inheriting these genes & being my susceptible to all my MI issues.

I worry so much about this affecting my daughter. I hope it does not. She takes a lot after H except for blond hair like me. We've all got blue eyes.