I would love to be able to cry in therapy. Instead I get all clinical and detached, describing things as if I were talking about someone else, or letting him do all the talking so I don't have to feel anything. This has always been strategy, to avoid feeling. Plus, I feel like we don't really get into anything too deep (which is cause for tears alone)...but I think he thinks I'm not ready, because I avoid issues like the plague. I also write better than I speak, and have cried many tears while writing him an email.