For the past several weeks, I’ve shared some pretty big things that have come forward with my counselor. We’ve worked through them in different ways and I’ve felt much better at the end of those sessions.

Mixed in with that, there have been stressful things that have happened with family and neighbors and altercations with my mom that have triggered me into a not so good place. I’ve brought these up with him and we’ve talked about them and I feel like I’ve worked through them. I guess.

I spent a lot of time to myself this weekend and felt like I didn’t know where to go from here. It feels really lonely.

It actually feels like I’ve walked into a dark cave and can’t find my way out. It borders on panic and I’m having a hard time calming myself.

I was thinking about all that I’ve brought out into the light these past few weeks and was wondering if that might be it. It’s like I’m trying to go back and sort everything out that has come forward and it’s overwhelming me.

I meet with him tomorrow and can talk with him about it then. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this.

I’m trying not to do this to myself but my attempts to stop it are not working.