I get a few moments of good, which I cling to as if they're my lifelines, then moments later I can't remember what was so good about them anyway. I'm going to try something that a lot of people would call really stupid tonight if the opportunity is there, but it's also the one thing I can't get out of my head... Someone I've been crushing on for a long time dropped a few hints within the past week. If she's around I'm going to put myself out there, yet again, and see what happens. The worst could happen is I'll get letdown, but when you're near bottom, down isn't that much further. I'm going to the gym in any way. I need exercise. It's almost time to go now.