I saw a patient in clinic this morning who sees my former T (the one who got rid of me because my chronic SI was "holding a gun to our heads in therapy"--even though I have always been insanely responsible about getting help/going to the ED when I need to). It brought up all this stuff about how mad and sad I am that she stopped seeing me and how bitter I am about this stupid program I'm in now.

And I just finished two 80 hour weeks on the wards and had to go to clinic today and then am on the night shift for four nights then back to clinic during the day next week. This schedule is actually insane. Humans can't switch contexts and time zones like this, it's just not how the organism is built.

I hate everything about this.