I've been really emotional I geuss the past year, but my feelings are connected to things that happen in my life, and change in response to things. I'm this mixed bag of constantly changing feelings. I think this started when my medication was slightly reduced.

Like right now I'm feeling proud of myself for certain things i've done this week, insecure and dissapointed about others, really happy about about some things that happened to me, bummed out about other stuff that didn't go my way, both apprehensive and excited for the future, and I pretty much both semi-hate and semi-love every single person in my life right now, including myself. Idk how it's possible for a person to feel so many contradictory overlapping things all at once.

But it's not the same as my bipolar swings. I find during episodes i'm either really ****ing miserable no matter what happens around me for weeks/months, or euphoric really no matter what happens around me for days/weeks. Even during mixed episodes (when i feel energetic but depressed) theres this rigidity. Plus as rule, my bipolar moods are at a disconnect with the real world. And i'm not experiencing that and haven't in a really long time. So it's not the same.

Just wondering if what I'm going through is normal. Do you guys tend to feel alot when stable? like be really affected by environments/people/things/experiences?