I do not have kids. To be completely honest, I believe I'd have a hard time taking care of another human being, because I am just holding onto a thread as far as taking care of myself. I have been working, but I do have panic attacks at work and have a very hard time keeping up with home responsibilities and keeping organized.

I am not great with managing money, and any added responsibility might push me over the edge. Plus, I am currently single, so I would not have support. Relationships are hard enough for me to deal with as well. My BP sometimes really takes a toll on them with both the manias and the periods of isolation where I do not feel like being around anyone. My biological clock is starting to tick.

I came to acceptance with my decision a long time ago. I do love kids, there's such a big difference when they are your own. I do deal with some stigma from peers for not wanting kids, especially since I am a woman, but I have to go with my gut. Unfortunately, I might be alone at an old age and will inevitably be left out of certain things. I'm hoping to find a partner who is on the same page when the time is right who respects my decision.