I still hope that any minute now I'll wake up and realize it was all just a bad dream. If I could do it over again, I wouldn't be afraid. I would trust you. You never let me down; you never hurt me. Now I know you never would.

"If I could do it over again"--i've typed those words so many times that my phone's keyboard knows it. All I have to do is type "if I," and it predicts the rest.