Sorry things are so bad for you Kitracer.I hope they improve soon.
I feel a bit despondent today,so many issues are going on with me,the latest being tendonitis I think causing me numbness in my arms and legs.
Weight is gaining not losing,so feel bad about that and blood sugars are too high still,no progress there.But thing is therapy is going great and I feel in a good place even though my situation currently can feel like the same old **** with no progress on solving loneliness and having my own people in my life.I oscillate between feeling what's the point why not just give up and die and feeling oh good I am getting somewhere.I am not completely lost and down and out,I have my home and some family left and whatever crap I have had in my life I have always felt it has had meaning,so I feel good about that and I no longer feel hollow inside,I am a woman of substance and do have future plans and ambitions,slowly but surely my life will get better,hopefully.