Please don't let these memories eat away at you, though I completely understand the need to get them out. Some memories need to be let out, and perhaps then gathered and locked up in a steel box and permanently stored in the archives to collect dust.

I have memories not that different than yours. I also have periods I can't remember at all (bipolar blackouts). I've asked my husband to tell me what happened during periods that I don't remember, but he has always refused to. I wonder if that's a bad thing or a good thing.