With T I would usually email her or look at her Fb photo, garden (she taught me a lot about gardening), re read emails etc. Now those very things make me miss her more.

with Emdr T I have googled her a bit, written emails I never send, and when I have been really struggling I texted her, that's about it. A couple of times she has responded to my texts. Those have helped. Otherwise, it all makes things worse. So I get angry with the situation and decide I hate therapy.