Is anybody really happy?

All I can remember is how a happy child in the innocence of youth might feel before being ruined by growing up.

I have many more adjectives that better describes my feelings of which mostly are negative, like mortified, humiliated, sad, frustrated, horrorified, ... that best describes my feelings of self.

My self-image is shattered, my self-esteem about gone...where do I begin and where do I end?

So I ask, are you happy?