I was just wondering if it were a red flag that I felt like such an outsider with most of the people he was friends with. I always wondered if he were ashamed of me or was afraid of what people might think. I know he compared us to other couples and likely really wished I were not queer. I have no idea if it were on purpose or by accident, but there were times he would forget to introduce me to people and/or have a conversation with someone and they would both completely leave me out.

And of course, through it all, it was all my fault for not being able to be friends with people like that. I didn't have a lot of friends when we were first together, but I lost all of to date him. I remember trying to keep the friendships up, but I was also in grad school and it was a mix of a lack of time, them not wanting me around as much since I was with him, and saying negative things about him.