I am sorry you are in such pain right now. Yes, depression is a good liar and can be very convincing. Know that, yes, things do get better. Sometimes it is hard to see that and hopefully you will find some relief soon. I can't tell you when you may find someone who will really understand how you are feeling outside of here and possibly a t. Do you have one? I know that it is a good place to express yourself in a safe environment.

Please know I am here and I care. If I can do anything please PM me anytime.

BB