Not sure. I'd have had to have had a completely different father entirely. He was verbally & physically abusive growing up. If I had a different dad or lived with my mom's parents, then, yes, but I'd have to go back to 4 years old before sexual abuse occurred. And I still didn't sleep well.

If I could have it happen without those things, maybe it would have been much better for me.

But in high school & college, I had brains & artistic talent. I was depressed, shy, and end the end got an ED. But the bipolar didn't get going until I was 20 to 25. And I was misdiagnosed with depression & put on SSRIs for 10 years, which I am sure did not do me any favors.