sunny my strong, secure, knows-just-what-to-do part of me feels masculine. I feel masculine when I feel like that. I was just *trying* to explain this to T last week.

I think asking T for the guidance you want is a really good idea becuase it's important that he knows you're thinking this so you can explore why and so he can answer your question about providing that for you.

Are the other things that have arisen hard to prioritize? Or are they so enmeshed it's hard to find a starting poinit? That can be so frustrating.