if it hadn't been for you, that kitty wouldn't have known good food and love.....accidents happen and i agree with you, this would make you feel bad.....but animal lovers have to adjust with life and death, because stuff happens.....i ran over one of my most favourite cats one time...years ago....it takes a long time to get over it but it wasn't due to anything that you did on purpose.....don't be so hard on yourself.......xoxoxo pat