Thanks for the reply, Bill3.

1) When she responded with her no when it came to getting back together, she was pretty adamant. I guess the way I went about suggesting our "break" - that we should both focus on school because we were both so busy - allowed for no input on her end. When I make decisions I'm pretty firm about them and don't take much heed on what others have to say. She's probably hurt that I didn't give her time to respond to my suggestion.

2) We've been through so much together already, and I've stayed by her side through so much and she's stayed with me though mine. This is far from the worst thing that's ever happened to us, so I'm surprised she's being so disagreeable about getting back together. Despite being quite emotional/reactionary, she's also pretty logical. Maybe she won't become my wife right then, but if she gives me the chance to redeem myself (and I think and hope that she will) I can explain myself. So I think that's what will get her to see me again - the chance to hear my explanation of what my intentions were.

3) This is my biggest hope, an unreserved yes, although I'm not too expectant of that reply. We've both spoken of marriage together as though it was a given that it would happen. So many conversations of how we'd raise our children, where we'd like to live, the types of rings she likes, what kind of dress she wants to wear, and how we'd be multi-religious. Not just a priest, but a rabbi, etc. Lmao. We also might as well have been married already. I'd moved in with her and her family after only two months of being together. 2 years and four months of coming home to each other, eating every single meal together, sleeping in the same bed every single night, sharing every waking moment of every day together. I want that back and I hope she does too.

I hope I didn't miss the point of your reply. 😅 Anything you'd like me to add? Thank you again.