I don’t know what happened today, but I just got really upset and angry after session. Nothing in particular happened, really...I just...I felt awful afterwards. Like I didn’t get what I needed again. I think I went in there after a bad week, mood and behavior-wise, and I expected her to be mad at me or lecture me. Instead, she spent a large portion of the session telling me that I’m not as worthless and awful as I think I am, and she kept saying nice things about me. I don’t believe any of them, though, really. I feel like she’s just trying to make me feel better. I felt uncomfortable in session and I shut down entirely, but I didn’t feel upset until it was time to leave. I left, went out to my car, and cried. I am so frustrated with myself. I can never let this T see any emotion. I feel the simultaneous need to feel closer to her and to push her away. I don’t know how to deal with this. I’m distressed. And T is only in the office 2 days this week, instead of her usual 3. I just wish I could tell her what I need. I can’t even figure out exactly what that is though...