Thank you all for responding nad reminding me that there is light at the end of the tunnel if i will just walk through the fear and go toward it... odds are, it's not a train And you are all right, my husband is a wonderful, understanding and romantic man. He will stand by me no matter what. He's already proved that 100 times over. Thanks again. BTW, am I aloud to sign these with my real first name?? Still learning the rules.