Welcome back!
You have crossed my mind often. I am sorry you are depressed again.
So my pdoc/therapist says the goal is not a cure (which we cannot achieve); the goal is maintenance.
So while I hope you can find a cure, I'd think you are doing well to continue working toward the very best you can do for yourself.
Depression sucks! Big time! I am sorry you suffer bouts of depression. I hope you can hang in there. You will see better days again.

WC