Welcome to PC! Your situation sounds really tough right now. I will pray that you get approval for your disability soon. One thing that I don't like about disability is that you have to wait two years before getting Medicare but maybe you are eligible for Medicaid or insurance subsidized by the Affordable Care Act? Going to the psychiatrist and therapist often will help you figure out how to manage your condition and will strengthen your disability case. It takes time to overcome all that you have been through but it is possible with the right support. I hope you have found a good psychiatrist. Good luck.