Its a difficult process. (((hugs))) I had to stop seeing my former T after 10 years because she got MS. I used part of the time to look for another therapist while still seeing my former T or talking with her on the phone. And part of the time I spent going over all the things I had learned and how I had grown. Basically looking at all the good stuff. The therapy kind of stopped and it became more "support" than therapy because she wasn't up for it. But that might not be the same in your case. It was tough. I still miss her every day even though I have a new T. I hope your ending will be positive. (((hugs)))