I woke up feeling extremely unwell this morning because it turns out I've got a urine infection. No big deal I know, these happen all the time it's not a big deal. But my god has it knocked me. I felt totally anxious and tired, and although I got to see the doctor I started crying and I've not been able to stop.

The only thing that's keeping me here is my daughter, but I feel terrible that I'm not being the mum I should be. I know I'm not doing anything wrong, she's clean, well fed and adored and rarely wants for anything, but I'm just putting so much pressure on myself and don't know how to stop. I love my little girl so much and I just want to be happy but I don't know how. I've not stopped crying all day and there's still no sign on it stopping. I feel so helpless.